To teach this lesson and pay tribute to a loved one..please read.

As some of you know, my moms fiance passed away the other day and today we buried him. Suffice it to say, one of the worst days of my life...all of our lives. It was horrible and now that darkness has set in, the feeling is worse. I know that the only thing that can take this pain away, is time..therefore i it here wishing my life away, wishing it was a year from now so that all of the "firsts" were over and the pain a little less.

I didnt always get along with my moms fiance and just the past couple of years have I come to terms with him and tried to make amends. But now, it is too late to say all i wanted to say to his face. I talk to him every chance I get but I just wish I could do something to have him look at me, hold my hand, and talk to me back.

Basically, since right now I am experiencing the pain I am a stickler for saying what you need to say while here on earth. Try not to hold things in or back...tell people you love them and why, do not let stubborness or pettiness get in the way. I guess I tried to make myself a bit better by typing this and in a way it has worked.

I just feel like I need to tell the world what a wonderful man this person was and how much he loved and was able to be loved. He was the strongest, kindest, sweetest, most genuine man I have ever met. He didnt just enter into our lives, he has been with my mom for about 12 years and bascially raised my brother who is now 15.

Just please dont hold feelings in. I was stubborn and petty. I had too much pride to say what I needed to say and now hes gone. If i can teach one person this small lesson of life, I would feel like I helped a little.

God Bless you Kenny and rest in everlasting peace forever. You deserve not to suffer anymore. May you be our everlasting guardian angel...because God knows...thats where you are! I love you and always have.

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That was beautiful. I'm sure he is very proud of you right now.

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It's an important lesson and one that we all need remember now and then. Don't be too hard on yourself Noreen. I am sure that he knew how you really felt.

Big hugs to you.

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Very Nicely put
I hope better days are ahead for you

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That was so well said, and well written.
Im so sorry your family is in such pain.

Lots of hugs to you and your family

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that was very nice.
Condoleneces to you and your family

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Though you couldn't tell him in person. Rest assured he knows that you love him. He wouldn't want you to beat yourself over this. The firsts will be hard. Just try to be strong. Give yourself & your mom a hug for me!!

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Nicely put Noreen and you are right!!!!

My deepest sympathies to you and your family.

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Well said

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Nicely said!! My prayers are with you

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Noreen, that was very nicely put.
I'm sure Kenny knows how much you love and care for him & what a beautiful impact he had in your life. to you and your family during this very difficult time.

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said beautifully

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Noreen that was so well written it truly brought tears to my eyes. I am sure he probobly knew how you felt even if you never came out and said it in so many words.
I hope the pain begins to ease and the"firsts" of everything go by with some enjoyment and you can remember the good times you had with him.

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bump

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I would like everyone to see this.